So, remember how I said in an earlier post about a 'secret admirer' who I thought was my one guy friends who asked me out a few weeks ago? Well, it turns out it wasn't him. It was two of my best friends pranking me. They thought it was so funny. I was/ still am really mad. I know it sounds like I'm overreacting, but it's true. Those letters gave me bad anxiety, worse then usual. Everyday I would go to my locker, scared I would get another letter. I hate having to hurt people, so I thought I would have to hurt the mystery man and say I will never love him. I went to bed crying at nights. Also, I was scared it would ruin my first relationship by making him mad. It really hurt me, and they all think it's funny. Also, I thought that, even though I kinda didn't want it to be true, I was kinda happy that someone actually loved me. I should've known no one loves a girl like me... But I would never tell any of my friends these things. I tell them that it's fine and that I'm not mad, when inside I'm crying and screaming. I'm the suffer in silence type girl... I just wish they could see how much it hurt....
Sorry for the sulking, I just needed to vent...
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