Well, I'm having boyfriend problems. If you can even call him my 'boyfriend'. I've been dating this guy for about 3 months, and I'm alone in it. It is a completely one sided relationship. Outside of school, he doesn't talk to me. I hate it. He doesn't even compliment me. At the winter ball we went to together, were I felt like I looked like a princess, he didn't say anything about how I looked. Today, I said hi to him in the hall and he waved but didn't smile.
He doesn't know that I go to bed crying some nights because I feel worthless. I feel like he doesn't care. When I was going through a ton of crap in my life, where he only knew a bit of it, he didn't care. I told him my aunt freaking died and he said he's sorry and changed the subject. I didn't even get a hug, which is what I needed. I'm so close to being done. I hide every emotion from him now, scared that he'll see the side of me that's breaking and will still not care. He doesn't know I'm always on edge. I feel worthless when with him. I get he's not romantic, but does it kill him to compliment me?! Just say I look nice or something! Now, I am not trying to fish for compliments, but I'm a girl. I like being told time to time I look nice. I have a very low self esteem, which no one knows about.
I'm so close to just ending the relationship. Give up the 3 years I've been crushing on him. I just want to feel happy again....
I just want a hug, is that to much to ask?
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